Happy Chinese New Year. I really do not enjoy traditions. I haven’t been very well the past few days. Being forced to leave the house for most of the day is agonising.
I don’t know what to do again. Just shut myself in my room and do my own things. But I have responsibilities to deal with. Eating, showering, working… Why must humans eat? It’s so stupid. We should be able to photosynthesize like plants.
I’m not feeling anything. That’s not good… Which is better, anxiety or nothing? I better enjoy the nothingness while my body is still loading. Is it my blood pressure? I had the opportunity to check it today but chose not to…
Apologies. I pray for a better mood, or just a short break from living.